Thursday, April 12, 2007

celluloid life

my life was never 7th Heaven. it was The Simpsons, but i was okay.

it turned to Malcolm in the Middle, but we had no father, and we weren't all boys. but we were okay. miki was a headache. batch was a genius. i was the youngest who got away with everything. mama straightened us all out.

when my brothers left for UP, mama and i were the Gilmore Girls. we were bestfriends until she became some sort of a Desperate Housewives character last year.

i lived the High School Musical life in sjs, spent the Wonder Years with my bestest friends. then it was time to leave.

UP was Sex and the City for me. men, shoes, and three sisters i never had. no sex, but life was good. we were all O.C. in our own little ways, but we loved each other.

in college, i was never good at Numb3rs and i had experiences with the Supernatural and (in)Justice. but i met really great Friends who were real-life Heroes.

i fell in love with my crazy own House, lived a Charmed life in a may-december affair in 2004. i have been a Bachelorette ever since he left me. but i managed to snag some cuties along the way. some of them just Vanished, others i had to push away for their Criminal Minds.

i started working last year. learned that the real world, or The Practice, is sad and fun. at times, i just wanted to say Just Shoot Me, but i managed to stay sane. now, i'm just an Ugly Betty who is wishing for a Prison Break from Twilight Zone.

today, more than ever, i am Lost.

but with enough Will and Grace and a little Nip/Tuck, i hope to find my Tru Calling soon.

until then, it will just be another day in my personal Project Runway. with no Scrubs needed.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

what is love?

love is Tuesday.

Love is waking up at 11:30am, rushing to take a bath & dressing to the nines.

Love is wearing "miting-de-avance" red, my super lows, killer heels.

Love is a Forever 21 paperbag inside a World Balance plastic bag to protect the invitations & posters from getting wet.

Love is smiling at everyone & anyone even if on normal days I would rather kill them.

Love is swallowing pride and asking for directions.

Love is having good faith on the phrase, "walking distance lang".

Love is brushing my hair, chewing mint, spritzing cologne, powdering my nose... more than twice during the day.

Love is foregoing rice meals.

Love is not taking offense on compliments from security guards, maintenance staff & tricycle drivers.

Love is walking along narrow corridors, open fields,and emergency exits.

Love is waiting for 1:30 pm in DLSU and laughing with colegialas in St. Scho.

Love is being diplomatic with guards in PLM, Mapua, Lyceum, Holy Spirit, La Con, CEU, San Sebastian.

Love is telling lies in San Beda and shaking hands in UE-Manila.

Love is letting a long-haired, yummy stranger "hatid" me to the 4th floor in FEU.

Love is jaywalking in 8 lanes to PUP, ignoring sharp leg pains and seeing UP tibaks inside the main campus.

Love is re-thinking the state of UP infront of an office in EARIST.

Love is walking from PUP to Sta. Catalina.

Love is banging the closed gates of Sta. Catalina and Arellano, begging the guards to let me leave and tape the letters on doors of the OSA.

Love is suppressing the urge to text along dark alleys leading to University of Manila.

Love is 17 schools. In 6 hours. In 3-inch heels. With a smile.

Love is meeting up with your loved one in the middle of nowhere to eat grilled burgers.

Love is the first "tambay" in Starbucks and talking about politics, the University, religion and sex.

Love is finally moving on :)

Monday, February 06, 2006

What is willpower?

Willpower is Monday.

Willpower is foregoing tears and sleeping in my own house.

Willpower is riding a bus at 4 am and eating sizzling liempo at 530.

Willpower is greeting the person you hate the most at 715 am.

Willpower is thinking of projects for your fave org while hearing the evil plans of evil people.

Willpower is listening to the dean when I'd rather have slept in the dorm.

Willpower is eating free donuts to wake me up.

Willpower is confidence in a multi-colored striped blouse, rubber slippers, and disheveled hair.

Willpower is mustering courage to talk to Dr. Abueva as he was munching on the free donuts.

Willpower is going to NBS Katipunan and braving the Monday embouteillage @ 8:30am.

Willpower is being absent the whole day to prepare all the letters and remedy problems with the posters.

Willpower is a long-distance call to Mama to request for a medical certificate for Monday and Tuesday.

Willpower is staying up late to plan an itinerary that I know would not be followed.

Willpower is looking forward to Tuesday :)

Friday, October 07, 2005

constipated in love

Dionysian ako. Apollonian siya. May pag-asa pa kaya?

(and2 n nman s Alumni ang Sugarfree. mind you, d ako naiyak sa Burnout. grrr)

que sera sera :)

Monday, September 26, 2005

Eleven Minutes

ako bilang nabaliw sa Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho (courtesy of kakai). tinapos ko maghapon ng Sabado. kakabaliw!

ang kowts, heto na:

"The rollercoaster is my life; life is a fast dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; it's taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it's mountaineering; it's wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don't manage it." (47)

"...the amount of time spent actually having sex is about eleven minutes." (86)

"That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it." (90)

"Although we didn't take our clothes off and I didn't come inside you, or even touch you, we've made love." (132)

"I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I'm not expecting anything to come of it." (138)

" cannot be practiced any time. We all have a clock inside us, and in order to make love, the hands on both clocks have to be pointing to the same hpur at the same time. That doesn't happen everyday. If you love another person, you don't depend on the sex act in order to feel good. Two people who live together and love each other need to adjust the hands of their clocks... until they realize that making love is more than just an encounter, it is a genital 'embrace.'" (173-4)

"Anyone who is in love is making love the whole time, even when they're not. When two bodies meet, it is just the cup overflowing. They can stay together for hours, even days. They begin the dance one day and finish it the next, or - such is the pleasure they experience - they may never finish it. No eleven minutes for them." (164)

"If you had allowed him to come and go, you would have loved and admired him even more; alas, you now need me in order to find him again." (215)

"It's odd how, when you live in a city, you always postpone getting to know it and usually end up never knowing it at all." (236)

"You can't say to the spring: "Come now and last as long as possible.' You can only say: 'Come and bless me with your hope, and stay as long as you can.'" (264)


Sunday, September 25, 2005


hanep tlga mgsimba sa Holy Sacrifice.

1) bilog ang Simbahan.
2) asa gitna ang altar at ang nka-pakong si Kristo.
3) wlang pintuan at bintana. open air.
4) bukas s lhat ng relihiyon at tao.
5) naiiba ang orientasyon ng altar.
6) Natl Artists my gwa ng Stations of the Cross.
7) may mga Hardin na iba-iba ang pokus at meaning.
8) pag umuulan s lbas, umuulan dn s loob khit my bubong.
9) wid kuliglig efex pg gbi pro solemn pa rin
10) bilog ang Simbahan



=nakawala ng wallet nung biyernes. nglalaman ng limang daang piso. last money.

=nailuto ang isang pakete ng seasoning ksma ng noodles. as in nsa plastic pa ung seasoning.

=nasira ang USB port ni kawen dhil pinwersa ang USB/mp3 ko. desperadang mgdownload ng tugtog nang d m2loy ang pgkabaliw.


Thursday, September 22, 2005


Gamugamo in the summer under the sky by the light
Anu ba ang ulam tonight
Kitang-kita kong mgfu-futlong ka mamaya nyan
kelangn pa bng imemorize yan
Nkhiga s kwarto wla namang lamang tiyan
Inuod mo na lang ng tv at magkwentuhan
tambay sa lobby't inom coke lite
Coz twas chorizo and me tonight

Pregnant cats are stayin at my feet
Kinalat ang basura jumebs sa corridor talagang yucky
Iligaw na sila sa Katipunan yihi
Tgnan ang tv dalwa-dalwa preho lng plbas
big brother sa isa gnun din sa isa
Sexy ang isa, isa nama'y mataba
Ganyan sa dorm, pangrich talaga
Coz ders chorizo and me tonight

Coz chorizo and rice like to roam Molave at night
Three gisantes two carrots in sinangag
Tinapa flakes and even togeng toppings yikes
Quail eggs at kamote fries
Always chorizo and me tonight